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After my suicide attempt, I don't think my father visited me even once in the psych ward. He couldn't possibly allow anyone to see him consorting with a known crazy person. What if his boss who worked two states away happened to be in that wing of the hospital and saw him and recognized that he was specifically visiting the loony bin and fired him for being (GASP!) crazy?
My mother visited every day for the whole visiting period. She sat with me and lectured me on how I was so thoughtless and irresponsible and selfish, and did I even consider how my little attempt to end my own life to get away from it all had affected her? The stress of having a child in the hospital had delayed her menstrual cycle by two days! She needed valerian root to sleep at night! Why do you think people try to kill themselves she asked my oldest sibling, the two of them sitting to each side of me, who had just survived a suicide attempt, but never posing me the question.
It's been four years since I moved far away and quit speaking to them but they do not understand, they have always been so loving and supportive, mayhaps it's just another teenage tantrum I am throwing as I enter my thirties?
My mother visited every day for the whole visiting period. She sat with me and lectured me on how I was so thoughtless and irresponsible and selfish, and did I even consider how my little attempt to end my own life to get away from it all had affected her? The stress of having a child in the hospital had delayed her menstrual cycle by two days! She needed valerian root to sleep at night! Why do you think people try to kill themselves she asked my oldest sibling, the two of them sitting to each side of me, who had just survived a suicide attempt, but never posing me the question.
It's been four years since I moved far away and quit speaking to them but they do not understand, they have always been so loving and supportive, mayhaps it's just another teenage tantrum I am throwing as I enter my thirties?