Thinking aloud

If I get a job before my big supply of pills runs out, it would probably be a bad idea to go through withdrawal while I've been at the job for a short time, right? Probably better to wait until I've been there six months or so?

And if I run out before I find a job, I should probably suspend job searching for a bit until I stabilize, so I'm not going to interviews while feeling like crap?

I'm going to end up on so many watchlists

"Is it possible to commit suicide by stabbing yourself in the heart" and other disturbing things I've looked up in the course of writing a book series.