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NO, I am a VERY SMART UNICORN SCIENTIST and I will DEFEAT THE BROKEN MACHINE and I will REMOVE THE GUNK CRUSTED ON IT and I will SUCCESSFULLY RUN THE EXPERIMENT.
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I don't think about my parents very often these days.
Sometimes I'll be reading or talking to someone and a memory will float up, and sometimes I'll be doing my own thing and then an innocent thing - the way the clothing is folded or an old item I pulled from a drawer - will bring me back for a moment. But mostly, they're a nonentity in my life.
I don't hate them. They're far away, I've had no contact with them in so long, they have no more power to hurt me. It's just not worth the energy to feel anything about them.
These were people who, for all intents and purposes, owned me for eighteen years. They hurt me horrifically, which permanently changed who I am. They ruined my chance to have normal relationships with my siblings and tried to do the same with the rest of my relatives.
And they're basically meaningless to me now.
The only odd thing is how none of this feels weird.
Sometimes I'll be reading or talking to someone and a memory will float up, and sometimes I'll be doing my own thing and then an innocent thing - the way the clothing is folded or an old item I pulled from a drawer - will bring me back for a moment. But mostly, they're a nonentity in my life.
I don't hate them. They're far away, I've had no contact with them in so long, they have no more power to hurt me. It's just not worth the energy to feel anything about them.
These were people who, for all intents and purposes, owned me for eighteen years. They hurt me horrifically, which permanently changed who I am. They ruined my chance to have normal relationships with my siblings and tried to do the same with the rest of my relatives.
And they're basically meaningless to me now.
The only odd thing is how none of this feels weird.
Honestly, I think the question isn't "why do women moan and scream during sex" but "why don't people generally nonverbally vocalize their emotions more?"
(The answer is that society teaches us from a young age that showing emotions makes you weak and impolite, and sex is damn near the only time we're not aggressively taught to restrain our expression.)
(The answer is that society teaches us from a young age that showing emotions makes you weak and impolite, and sex is damn near the only time we're not aggressively taught to restrain our expression.)
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Me: I'm just so down lately.
The tree in my backyard: I have fruit now.
Me: Oh shit really?!?!
The tree in my backyard: I have fruit now.
Me: Oh shit really?!?!
"I had hoped to change Megatron's mind" - Optimist Prime.
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"I am SO not getting paid enough to put up with this" - Ratchet's thoughts, probably, whenever the humans show up.
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Transformers asks some very interesting questions, chief among them: what if Kung Fu movie, but robots?
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There's a square patch of land behind the garage that would be perfect for a lil' vegetable garden, but the soil there is practically cement and the sun has done such a number on it that even the grass is sickly.
Oh and also we don't own the house so we can't do landscaping.
Oh and also we don't own the house so we can't do landscaping.
@ everyone who whines about how much of a drag it is to buy people Christmas gifts: have you considered Not Celebrating?
I've been Not Celebrating Christmas for three decades and it's GREAT!
I've been Not Celebrating Christmas for three decades and it's GREAT!
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