palominocorn: A rearing palomino unicorn with a rainbow mane and tail, standing in front of a genderqueer symbol. (Default)
( Jun. 22nd, 2024 06:06 am)
A lot of negative cRPG reviews make sense when you realize that most of those gamers aren't playing games because they're interested in those specific games, they're chasing the experience they got playing their favorite game for the first time.
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( Mar. 18th, 2024 10:32 am)
Cats have two types of cone cells in their eyes rather than three, so they're essentially red-green colorblind. This means that my orange cats think they're the same color as my grey cat.

While pondering this, I realized: I think my spouse and I have similar skin colors, but a rainbow mantis shrimp might not agree.
palominocorn: A rearing palomino unicorn with a rainbow mane and tail, standing in front of a genderqueer symbol. (Default)
( Mar. 3rd, 2024 06:08 pm)
Most vegetables fall into one of four categories:
1. Fancy carrots (fennel, celery, parsnips).
2. Fancy onions (garlic, shallot, leek).
3. Fancy cabbages (broccoli, lettuce, cauliflower).
4. Actually fruit (peppers, corn, tomatoes, beans, peas, squash, cucumbers).
palominocorn: A rearing palomino unicorn with a rainbow mane and tail, standing in front of a genderqueer symbol. (Default)
( Dec. 28th, 2023 05:42 pm)
There's probably a foreign word for the feeling I get when someone tells me something about themself and I think "wow, you're lying to yourself so hard right now, and there's nothing I can even say because of how hard you've convinced yourself of this" and if there isn't one someone needs to coin one stat.
palominocorn: A rearing palomino unicorn with a rainbow mane and tail, standing in front of a genderqueer symbol. (Default)
( Dec. 16th, 2023 08:02 pm)
"I use social media to rest/relax" is a (defensive and sometimes aggressive) assertion I see people make sometimes.

Now, it's true that the people who inspire them to say this are generally judgy busybodies who aren't saying this with good intentions.

And it's also true that a person's preexisting issues will not automatically improve by deleting apps on their phone.

I am, however, still annoyed by the statement. Rest is taking a nap or at least putting everything down for a bit and letting your brain and body just chill; browsing social media isn't rest any more than reading a book, since your mind is still engaged with something.

Social media can be relaxing, but... honestly, the people for whom social media is relaxing are the ones who look at nothing but photography or recipe blogs, and that's a demographic that social media algorithms are actively hostile too. (They're also a demographic that's unlikely to be writing defensive statements about their social media usage.) The fact of the matter is that social media (and much of the modern internet) is designed to keep you engaged as long as possible (because you are the product and the real consumers are the companies paying for ads to be placed in front of you), and, fundamentally, letting you scroll purely relaxing stuff does not keep you as engaged as putting things you will be enraged and disgusted by would.

And because the enraging and disgusting stuff is mixed in with things that makes you feel good (funny, educational, validating stuff), it's that much harder to recognize how much the whole experience is putting stress on you.
palominocorn: A rearing palomino unicorn with a rainbow mane and tail, standing in front of a genderqueer symbol. (Default)
( Dec. 2nd, 2023 03:31 pm)
To quote [personal profile] redthedragon : "I like improving because I get bored of sameness. You apparently improve because the sameness you like is considered not good enough. We are not the same."

And it got me thinking: why do I keep learning?

A harder question to answer than you'd expect, especially in light of my years-long career as a scientist.

I'm not afraid of stagnating; in fact, I very strongly believe in the concept of good enough. I'm not trying to impress people. I very rarely get bored of doing stuff that I previously enjoyed.

The best answer I can come up with is that I am incapable of leaving well enough alone. If I see something that draws my attention enough, I want to learn how does that work and can I do that, in the same way that seeing dirty dishes in someone else's sink makes me antsily wonder can I wash those or is that rude. Now, the limits of time, money, and my own body mean that I decide not to pursue many of the things that I want to learn (I'd love to learn to do backflips; I would not love to break my neck), but that doesn't erase the desire.

You keep improving because you think you're not good enough; I keep improving for the same reason I can't stop picking at scabs. We are not the same.

I suspect that the general disconnectedness people feel (from each other due to stranger danger and panopticon policies, from their jobs due to capitalist grind, from art and nature due to a lack of societal prioritization, even from their own minds and bodies due to a lack of time and energy) is fueling their willingness to buy into fast fashion, fast tech, fast entertainment, etc.
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( Oct. 21st, 2023 06:13 pm)
Looking around, I've noticed that a lot of the people around me are disconnected: from their communities, from their own wants and needs, from their culture, from their past and their future, from the things they own and use, from their governments, from nature, from the rest of the world.

And there are a lot of reasons for this, ranging from "fascism and the kyriarchy benefit when we're all isolated" to "we're all traumatized in various ways and to different degrees, and trauma makes engagement harder", but the end result of it is that I see a lot of people who try to fill that hole in their lives with stuff. New electronics, "little treats", the latest hot new thing. I think there's a feedback mechanism going on there: the act of getting (buying) new stuff makes them feel better, but only temporarily, so they keep doing it over and over again, in the hopes of another respite from the horrors of existing in this society.
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( Jun. 5th, 2023 12:40 pm)
A major part of my philosophy is that you can change the future but not the past.

You can't undo whatever bad things you've done, but you can make amends and do better going forward.

You can't erase the bad things that happened to you, but you can work toward recovering and building a better life for yourself.

Yes, it's tragic that you lost or wasted those years in the past. But will you throw more of your future away by beating yourself up about it, or will you try to make tomorrow better?
palominocorn: A rearing palomino unicorn with a rainbow mane and tail, standing in front of a genderqueer symbol. (Default)
( Apr. 1st, 2023 08:51 am)
My grumpy belief is that I don't owe people any of my personal information, and every time I share something, whether it's how I'm feeling or the deepest traumas buried in my soul, it is a gift that I am giving them.

The corollary to this is that other people don't owe me their personal information either, and if they do chose to share, they are giving me a gift and I ought to react appropriately.
palominocorn: A rearing palomino unicorn with a rainbow mane and tail, standing in front of a genderqueer symbol. (Default)
( Mar. 7th, 2023 10:32 am)
My anecdotal observation is that it's the my-way-or-the-highway, argue people into submission type of leftist who are so prone to getting radicalized into right-wing ideology.
palominocorn: A rearing palomino unicorn with a rainbow mane and tail, standing in front of a genderqueer symbol. (Default)
( Jan. 30th, 2023 04:01 pm)
"Being shunned by your entire community is often lethal" and "people are allowed to cut ties with others" are two statements that can and should coexist.
palominocorn: A rearing palomino unicorn with a rainbow mane and tail, standing in front of a genderqueer symbol. (Default)
( Jan. 13th, 2023 08:14 am)
Ultimately, the only way to ensure people don't steal your art is to never make it. If it exists, physically or digitally, there's a risk that someone will get their hands on it and copy or claim it.

Now, there are various levels of risk. Keeping a document saved on your password protected personal computer means that someone would need to break into your account to do so, and people who do that are probably looking for your bank information rather than your magnum opus. Posting something to Wattpad, on the other hand, is like waving a flag in front of a raging bull.

Ultimately, it's up to each of us to decide which risks are worth taking with our own art.

(I'm not saying that the rampant stealing of art is morally correct, because it's not, it's awful. I'm saying it exists and it's something we all need to be aware of.)
palominocorn: A rearing palomino unicorn with a rainbow mane and tail, standing in front of a genderqueer symbol. (Default)
( Nov. 4th, 2022 06:36 pm)
I don't know who I was before the abuse, because my earliest memories are of the abuse. I can only vaguely speculate what I might've become.

And that's honestly fine with me. I've made my peace with what happened and I've built a decent life for myself. The person I would've been probably would have also been happy, but also they would have been Not Me.
palominocorn: A rearing palomino unicorn with a rainbow mane and tail, standing in front of a genderqueer symbol. (Default)
( Sep. 26th, 2022 05:40 pm)
Hypothesis: while the zoomies are typically associated with physical activity and restlessness, mental zoomies also exist.
palominocorn: A rearing palomino unicorn with a rainbow mane and tail, standing in front of a genderqueer symbol. (Default)
( Sep. 17th, 2022 07:23 am)
A lot of people seem to think that recovering from trauma means going back to your pre-trama self. And then when they learn that is very much impossible, they kind of... give up? Get stuck in their trauma and the dysfunctions it gives them and refuse to do much about it.

Thing is... people change all the time, with or without trauma. Trauma forces particularly brutal, unwanted changes on you, but even without it, you wouldn't be the same person year to year.

What if that was the narrative we used? That people change, that trauma forcibly changes you, but you wouldn't be able to stay back-then-you anyway?
palominocorn: A rearing palomino unicorn with a rainbow mane and tail, standing in front of a genderqueer symbol. (Default)
( Sep. 9th, 2022 01:02 pm)
Hypothesis: the more a business urges you to review them on Yelp/whatever industry specific site they're on, the more likely they are to be bad at what they do.
palominocorn: A rearing palomino unicorn with a rainbow mane and tail, standing in front of a genderqueer symbol. (Default)
( Jul. 7th, 2022 09:19 am)
The "scientists and engineers are bad at social skills and creative endeavors" thing isn't some natural law about the division of labor among hemispheres in the brain.

It's a socially created thing. See, a lot of us got shunted into the "good at math and science" box sometime in elementary school, and since science and engineering are prestigious careers, our parents and teachers pushed us to focus our energy there, often at the expense of all other subjects (and sometimes at the expense of our actual childhoods).

And then because we were in that category, we were allowed to lag behind in other skills - whereas other kids got corrected on bad behavior and encouraged to play sports, paint, sing, etc, we were told not to worry about that and focus on our books.

So then we grow up with the ability to solve complex equations in our heads and encyclopedic knowledge of the periodic table... and very few other skills. And what's more, most of us swallow the idea that our prestigious careers are inherently better wholesale, and refuse to consider the importance of anything other than STEM.
palominocorn: A rearing palomino unicorn with a rainbow mane and tail, standing in front of a genderqueer symbol. (Default)
( Jul. 6th, 2022 08:29 am)
Most people spend simultaneously too much and not enough time in their own heads.

Edit: wait, no, that doesn't make sense. Most people spend the time they're in their own heads doing all the wrong things.
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